Doula???

So I am thinking of taking the Doula training. My only caveat is that I have never had a vaginal birth. I am wondering if anyone would want a doula who never experienced labor herself. I really would love it. I also think it would be healing to do this. Sage is crying so more later.....

Worth a Thosand Words

Short and Sweet

Yes, there are dishes in my sink.....we ate today

Yes, there are clothes that need putting away...we have nice clothes to put on our bodies.

Yes, there are books on the floor beside the sofa...I can read too my kids and one day they can read to me!

Yes, my bed is unmade-but I have one.

Yes, toys may be underfoot...my kids laughed as they played with them.

Yes, the house is not perfect but we have a roof over our heads, a warm bed and warm clothes, we have beautiful children who are healthy and happy.

We are blessed.

I love Hathor the Cow Goddess. http://thecowgoddess.com/ Her last strip was on "Nursing Rooms". It was great. These rooms can be both a blessing and a curse. Some are better than others. The one in the mall near me is a tiny dark room with a change table and a vinyl bench to sit on. Anyone that has ever nursed would know that a bench in not concussive to breastfeeding and therefore i wonder why this room is there. Is it for the convenience and enjoyment of a nursing mom or a way to keep her out of sight. I hope it is the former.

Now I appreciate a good mothers room. One that I use on occasion is more like a rest stop in the mall. It has toys for the older kids, a TV with kids shows, two big bathrooms with miniature toilets for the kiddo. There are comfy seats for the nursing moms, and a microwave to heat up foods. It is welcoming and does not feel like a jail cell like the room I mentioned earlier.

Where a woman nurses is her choice though whether a nursing room is provided or not. If a woman wants to nurse in public not only is it her prerogative but she is protected by law in Canada. So just because there is a nursing room available doesnt mean that I will use it.
They can feel very isolating and mean separation from whom ever you are out with.

In my experience nursing shows less skin than the cover of a Maxim magazine. There is nothing indecent about feeding a baby. I would like to society embracing nursing for what is, the natural way that we as mothers feed our children.

Due Date

Yesterday was Sage's due date. It was kind of a sad day for me. I had hoped and prayed that her birth would not end in a C/S however it did. Now I am very great full for the good medical care that I received and that she was born healthy but it was not the birth I wanted. It was my best C/S overall, I had my great midwife Sylvia by my side as well as Todd, and great team of doctors and nurses that did all they could to make this experience a good one. They quickly brought Sage over to me after she was born for a cuddle and a kiss, and then she was brought to the recovery room to nurse. That was the best moment she was wide awake and alert and so beautiful. I will cherish that moment forever.

BUT it was a C/S. Will I ever get over not birthing a baby from my birth canal. I feel like I did not even birth my babies. One second I was pregnant 2:46 pm and then a moment later at 2:47 I had my third baby. I did not work for it. I felt helpless and not empowered. I felt robbed.

Now two weeks later I am mourning the experience that I will never have. And I am celebrating my Sage.

Some PICS

Sage Molly
July 13/07
Five pounds one and a half ounces
2:37 pm

Some 37 week fun......

We gathered some paint..... And got creative.....
Morgan could not quite reach the BUMP But fun was had....
Maddie's hand print......


It was fun.

A Milestone......

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Change is in the air

Well I am 36 weeks pregnant with my third daughter. Wow. I can't believe how quickly time has gone from seeing the two pink lines until today.

I remember holding Morgan in the hospital when she was about a week old, so tiny not even 5 pounds yet and I was thinking that I was not done, our family was not yet complete.

So now I sit here on a sweltering July evening in my almost quiet home alternating between issuing an eviction notice for my sweet daughter and hoping that I will go way overdue...because I am well aware of how our lives will change.

Many people seem fearful of that third child that somehow it is unbalanced and that it is one more than you have hands for. But hands are not near as important as heart and we have plenty of room to grow our hearts.

For me the first was hardest. The second was easier. What I found the hardest with the second was that my oldest no longer had me to herself. With this baby that will not be an issue as both kids are used to sharing. Although anyone who knows me know that our current "baby" will not adjust as easily as her big sister did. But she will and I have no doubt that she will so relish in the role of big sister.

So now I as a prepare for the arrival of my new baby I too am relishing my current position. And enjoying every second.